Saturday, February 04, 2017

What Fear Has Been Holding Me Back

For a very long time I thought I was a confident person. I wore my independence as a righteous badge of honor. I hid my insecurities and fear of really connecting with people behind this wall of poor self-confidence and the thought that I didn't care what people thought.

This, in fact, was not true. I did care what people thought and I was insecure and it kept me from connecting with people on an intimate level and a very basic level. On the very basic level it kept from doing my job. It kept me from following up on things, making phone calls, starting conversation, moving things forward. I had big ideas dashed by the inner filling that I wasn't enough and "people" didn't think what I was doing was a good idea. I did care what people thought. And, I was  they would see through me and know it and think I was a fraud.

It also kept me from connecting on this most intimate level. The wall of insecurity stood strong in my inability to make the first move, say that thing that was on my mind, or say that thing that would make someone angry at me or love me even more.

Today, the insecurities are falling away. They had to for me to be the parent I want to be. You can't be an insecure parent or you won't be able to give your kids boundaries or expand those boundaries and let go of the ones you need to so they can grow. It is tough. You have to face your on deficiencies to show up. And that is what I want most, to show up fully as my self, not as someone who is afraid to make someone angry, hurt someones feelings, or get something wrong. When you show  up those things will happen but, that have to or you want be able to be the person you and everyone else is waiting for. You. You who can also  love deeply, explore, learn, and make so many people smile too.

Tuesday, April 05, 2016

Momma! Resident Finder!

Most often spoken phrases to me in our house "Momma where is...? Tara, have you seen.....?" My most useful skill seems to be finding other peoples things which explains why I never know where my keys, phone or coffee cup is.

Monday, April 04, 2016

My Son's Take on Donald Trump

Donald Trump doesn't know anything about America. He is just a silly man who tell jokes on TV.

Sunday, September 20, 2015

First day of Kindergarten and Third Grade

Eric is more than ready to show Noah the ins and outs, while watching out for his little brother as he enters the same school as him. It is the sweetest thing. Noah is more than ready to learn. Momma and Dadda are ready for their two boys to be at one school :)






Monday, September 07, 2015

Happy Ninth Birthday Eric

Happy birthday  to my sweet, careful, confident boy. You light up my life with your energy, enthusiasm, and smile. You rise with the sun smiling, laughing, and talking  about everything. You love sports of any kind and it is so perfect  that  we will run the Raiders 5k at your request  for your first 5k. Math, carrying out instructions, and following (and making) rules  are your  strong points. You love with a big heart and give the biggest, best hugs. You now read  to me and share your  thoughts. You recognize emotion in others, and you  thrive on reassurance that your effort in all things is accomplishing the goal. We love you. I  love you  and am grateful that I  was chosen to be your Mom. You  have brought more love, challenge, joy, and learning  into my life and I  will  love continuing to watch you share this with the world...along with  that  beautiful and contagious  smile. Happy ninth birthday.


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Monday, August 17, 2015

Noah's Fifth Birthday Party & Pre-K Graduation

My sweet and expressive baby boy turned fiver years old this year and graduated from CLIF BASECAMP. After five years and one of two boys to go through the entire CLIF BAR BaseCamp child care program, he is going to kindergarten. I have some mixed emotions but we are all developmental ready for this next phase. Noah can feel it and expresses he desire to learn more and more. I am ready to have what kindergarten and Eric and Noah being at the same school will offer. It is funny to me that I am not more sad to walk out the Basecamp doors. I am definitely nostalgic for time gone by, but my readiness to have more time with my family in new ways and more independence for all far overshadows sadness. Developmental readiness is not just important for kids but, also us parents who never stop developing in our constantly adjusting roles as parents.

Congrats Noah on turning and summiting all the major peaks:

Mt Hood - infant room
Mt Shasta - toddler room
Mt Rainer - junior pre-k
Mt Whitney - pre-school
Mt Denali  - pre-k




Noah’s last day as a pre-ker will be August 14th. Of course we will be dropping in plenty J Noah and Eric are pretty excited to be in the same place again. Eric likes to keep track of his bro and Noah likes doing what his bro is doing! And we like having one drop off and one school to keep track of. Our time at base camp has been extremely special and we are so grateful for all the love and attention our children have received, right next door.
Taavi has been Noah's best friend since Mt Hood - like brothers

Thursday, June 18, 2015

June CLIF BAR BaseCamp Newsletter

 Mt. Denali-Graduation Day is Here!

June was full of hellos, goodbyes, and celebration as we welcomed a new, yet familiar face, into the classroom, Abhaya Keatts! Abhaya's spunky, fun personality is a great addition to the classroom and if you haven't done so already, please don't hesitate to welcome Charles, Kate, and Abhaya into the Mt. Denali family!
Excited for new friends entering the classroom, we also had to say goodbye to a very special teacher, Ms. Keri, as she prepares for the arrival of her baby boy in July. Although we were sad to see her leave, we made sure to send her off with big hugs, warm wishes, and a list of potential baby names. Ms. Keri has been such an amazing teacher and support system throughout the year, we have no doubt she will make an amazing mother as well. We wish her the best of luck and anticipate her return in the Fall.
While Ms. Keri is out on maternity leave, we welcomed Ms. Jeanie into the classroom and couldn't be more excited! Already familiar with the children and the routine, Ms. Jeanie has jumped right in and made this transition a smooth one. We are confident that she will be a great addition to the classroom and make an amazing teacher. Welcome Ms. Jeanie!


With a month filled with hellos and goodbyes, it was time for celebration! Starting the month off with only three days until graduation, the children wasted no time getting ready for the big day, which meant practicing songs, going over dress rehearsals, and thinking about our aspirations for the future. The children sang three songs for moms and dads including the infamous "I Know my ABC's!" and two Mt. Denali originals called "Graduation Day is Here," and "I'm a Graduate!" Prior to graduation, each child was asked what they are excited about the most to learn in Kindergarten and what they will miss about Base Camp. Each response was then read as they received their diploma. Graduation was concluded with a slideshow of the graduates' journey throughout each class starting from their first day at Base Camp. Fortunately for us, this was a very special group of graduates, having transitioned all the way from Mt. Hood! Thank you to all those who came and joined us on our big day, we could not have done it without the loving support of all our families. Below, are Mt. Denali's Class of 2014 graduates along with a quote of what they are excited to learn about in Kindergarten and what they will miss about Base Camp.

"I am excited to play outside in a new place!" "I will miss playing outside at Base Camp." -Colt Hitchock"I am excited to play outside in a new place!" "I will miss playing outside at Base Camp." -Colt Hitchock
"I want to do math!" "I will miss Ms. Lisa and Ms. Keri." -Eli Dao Hoang"I want to do math!" "I will miss Ms. Lisa and Ms. Keri." -Eli Dao Hoang
"I am excited to play with legos and make robots!" "I will miss Share Day." -Reza Huemmer"I am excited to play with legos and make robots!" "I will miss Share Day." -Reza Huemmer
"I am excited to play outside in a new place!" "I will miss seeing Colt." -Lilian Briones"I am excited to play outside in a new place!" "I will miss seeing Colt." -Lilian Briones
"I am excited to learn about science!" "I will miss the toys at school." -Noah Thies"I am excited to learn about science!" "I will miss the toys at school." -Noah Thies
"I want to read more books!" "I will miss Lincoln Logs." -Taavi Walle"I want to read more books!" "I will miss Lincoln Logs." -Taavi Walle
"I want to learn more about letters!" "I will miss playing with my friends at school." -Cruz Hurston"I want to learn more about letters!" "I will miss playing with my friends at school." -Cruz Hurston

Congratulations Class of 2015! We wish you all the best in Kindergarten and may all your dreams come true!
With Love,
Ms. Lisa, Ms. Keri, and Ms. Jeanie